And now, I find myself standing at the beginning of a life I never expected to live. So, I have been asking myself, what is my new normal?

Today we celebrate our 42nd anniversary and the world and I say goodbye for the last time. You have been and will always be the love of my life, my soul mate, the father of my children, the grandfather to our grandchildren, the brother, the cousin, the uncle and the friend.

It didn’t arrive all at once. Agony, in the presence of death, is slow and uneven—like waves that don’t keep rhythm.